Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Tuesday February 2, 2010

It is already February WOW time is flying by. Drama is in the first stage of preparation with having meetings, choir rehearsals, etc. God is so good He always provides what we need for drama. Today my daily devotion was on Ephesians 1:7" He (God) is so rich in kindness that He purchased our freedom through the blood of his Son, and our sins are forgiven."

Wow it is so hard for us as humans to think when we ask for Jesus Christ to come into our hearts that all of our sins are forgiven. That means old as well as new! Our sins being forgiven is easy to say but its not easy for us to let go of those past sins that we have, it always seems for me that they are always in the back of my mind. I think one reason for me is that I feel so unworthy of God forgiving me of that sin! As I draw closer to God it has been easier for me to let those sins go but I feel more unworthy of the forgiveness today than I did yesterday.

Psalm 103:12 " As far as the east is from the west, so far as he has removed our transgressions from us."

Oh God today help me to let go of those sins that may still be in my mind bothering me. I believe that the only reason why they may be there is to let me know how far I have come. Thank you for dying on the cross for ALL sin. We are so unworthy of your love but, you still love us no matter where we come from or what we have done. Wow only if we could have that kind of love for others!!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Thursday January 29, 2010

Today is thursday and we have done very good as a family not eating out.....I have cooked everynight this week! That in itself is a miracle!! We have been sitting down sunday lunch and asking each one of the kids what they would like to eat the next week and try to stick with it. You know how busy life is but we have been trying to slow down and eat together as soon as Michael gets home from work. I have decided not to step on the scale because its not about the number it's about how I feel! My cardiology appointment is coming up soon and I am scared I will be fussed at because I have gained weight, he is very hard core on healthy eating and doing what is right. What I don't understand is that I can work out everyday and eat what I am suppose to and still don't lose. I have made an appointment with an endocronologist for March so hopefully by going to him some of my questions can be answered. Through all this God is still faithful and true. At Remnant tonight Joseph spoke that we should love others as we fall more in love with God and that's one thing I have been trying to do is to love myself. For me it is easy to love others but myself is always put on the back burner. Oh God I just pray that I can take me for who I am beauty starts with the inner self before outer self! Help me to love myself unconditionally as you love me unconditionally. I give you all of me!

In God's hands,

Friday, January 22, 2010

Friday January 22, 2010

Well it's been a week and a half since I have posted probably due to the fact I am down on myself because I have been so busy and haven't taken care of me this week. Why do you think we never put ourselves in the realm of being taking care of? There is always others that need our everyday everyminute attention but where is our attention for us?? How do I take care of myself when I have so many things that need to be done? This time of the year is especially hard because we are doing upward basketball at church and then it goes straight into drama. Okay so I need to sit down an evaluate what I need to do for me because I would like to stay around and be able to take care of those that need me! God I just pray for the wisdom and understanding on how to put some time in ME! I need all who read this to please pray for me tonight I am doing a wedding shoot and you know for weddings you only get one shot there are no retakes. I am nervous (like I could just throw up)!! I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Wednesday 1-13-2010

Okay well, today is Wednesday and I have been pretty hardcore on weight watchers....oh it is so hard especially when Kaycee (my 3 year old) says mommy I want a happy meal! Today while I was doing my devotional it was on fear I kinda posted a little bit on my facebook. You know I really never thought about all the fears I have. When I started listing the fears that I have it was lots. God tells us do not fear for He is with us. God also tells us not to worry that He died for us not to worry (that is me summing it up in my words). WOW, God died for me to not worry about things, but Satan gives us that feeling of worry Satan knows that is one way he gets us by giving us WORRY! My prayer for me and my family is for us especially me to fall on my face in front of the thrown of God and give him my fears and worries. Food is a big worry of mine but I know if I can totally give it to God then I can do all things through Him who give me strength! God I just pray right now for whomever is reading this that have some of the same worries and fears that I have. I pray that we can give those worries and fears to you and lay them down at your feet. Lord, please continue giving me the strength to get healthy and to look to you in all that I do! God you are my rock, my best friend and my savior. Please look over all those that are in Haiti, look over the families who have lost loved ones during this disaster and please give them comfort to get through this time of trouble. I love you and thank you for all you do! In the Lord's name I pray.

Monday, January 11, 2010

First Week of my life style change

Hi everyone my name is Ashleigh and I have struggled with my weight all my life. When I was 21 I had lost all my weight and was maybe a little under weight (you could never look at me now and imagine that). After I got married and got pregnant I ballooned and normally people lose their weight post pregnancy well,,....not this chick. I just seemed to keep it on and add more to it. I have been on every diet you can think on and to me the only one that works is your diet why you ask??? Well, because you are the only one that can monitor what goes into your mouth and we live in the daysof bif buffets and biggie frys and so forth. This weekend I have decided I was going to try and change my lifestyle not only for me but for my kids because if we do not teach them now what is our next generation of kids going to look like. I want to teach my girls to eat better and exercise and to see themselves for who they are, not what others want them to be. I started this blog really to help me be accountable for what I need to be doing! I also want to challenge Marla while shes gone to see if I can lose weight at home like she does on the ranch. Oh God please give me the desire to change my eating habits, God help me to stay focus on my daily tasks and help me to stay in your word and seek your face daily!